Sometimes, we can be our own worst enemies. I am surely no exception, when I set out to accomplish anything and go about it only to find that the results are not quite what I want, it tacks onto a list inside my head. You know the list, the one you’ve written up to keep track of all your failures so you can pull it out one day to make excuses as to why you can’t do this or shouldn’t do that. It’s that very same list that constantly reminds you that no matter what you do, no matter what you say in the form of affirmations or declarations…you are not enough.
It is always at weak moments when feelings of inadequacy resurface that true tests of life come into play. If you were paying attention to life trying to soak up as much knowledge as you could so you could “good grades” in the form of whatever terms of success you aspire to achieve, maybe, just maybe you survive to fight another day hopefully to win the great war. Or if you’re like me you pump your fist and start screaming to the heavens asking God to stop testing you, because you suck and you’re a bad test taker…
I’ve concluded that these feelings are like being under attack, an attack upon the stagnant attack that was already lingering around, and you have to pull out the heavier artillery. You have to pump up the good habits with which you already have established a routine.
For instance, I have affirmations hanging on my surrounding walls, taped to my mirror recorded on my phone, etc I read them if I notice them mostly in my head. On a bad day, I speak them out loud. If I by myself don’t feel enough, I speak out loud that I am enough because my heavenly Father says so and through Him I was enough in the past and through Him I am enough today. If I feel hopeless after using my Unique Super Power to see the end goal, but not being so gifted in knowing how to get there; I do my best to remember my vision, then I remember how tiny a mustard seed is, and convince myself to at the very least have that tiny seed of faith that my vision will indeed come to past. If you’ve been doing yoga all this time maybe you can dust off your old Taebo tapes and kick some invisible butt!
Is this easy? No, not really. When you’re being tested, everything that you’ve studied in your life how to’s or what to do’s, and everything you’ve been taught or tried to teach yourself ….it’s funny how it’s easily thrown out the window. And so you goof up, you deal with the aftermath oooh consquences consquences if you are a fighter (and that you are) you regroup, get your act together, and you hit the books only this time you actually learn.
Then amazing things happen over time, with continual study and practice, you get better and better at combating things you never thought you could ever conquer. The same tests reappear and you get another chance to pass. If you fail, you push yourself to try again, and that in and of itself is a great accomplishment.
“I believe life is constantly testing us for our level of commitment, and life’s greatest rewards are reserved for those who demonstrate a never-ending commitment to act until they achieve. This level of resolve can move mountains, but it must be constant and consistent. As simplistic as this may sound, it is still the common denominator separating those who live their dreams from those who live in regret.” Anothony Robbins
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